My PCOS Rant

I hate this. PCOS SUCKS!!!!!!! Adiana is 10 months old, and I have YET to have a normal cycle since I got pregnant with her. The first doctor put me on the wrong dose of progesterone to get me to end two months of non-stop bleeding. So I stopped for about two weeks and then started up again...for another month. This, by the way, is the doctor (supposedly a PCOS expert) who took blood tests at the wrong time in my cycle and then when he got the results back, he said that he didn't see anything wrong with my results and so I obviously didn't have PCOS. He suggested that I go on a good low-carb diet for six months, lose some weight and he bet I'd be able to conceive on my own.

YOU'RE KIDDING!!!! [slapping forehead] IS THAT ALL I HAVE TO DO?!?!?!?!?!? I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT OF THAT!!!!!! [rolling eyes] Sheesh... idiot...

Anyway, after that, Dr Vecc put me on another round of progesterone. This right dose this time. And since we wanted to start trying to get pregnant again, Dr Weary started me on Clomid. About three days into the five day course, I turned into a...well, let's just say I wasn't very fun to be around. Now I'm just an emotional wreck, but I had to deal with hot flashes from hell for over a week. I'm now on day 20 of my cycle. I have a 21 day progesterone blood test tomorow afternoon, and to the best of my knowledge, I haven't ovulated. I still could, but from what I've read eggs released after day 21 aren't usually very good for fertilizing. So I put myself and my poor husband through 10 days of sheere hell, and we won't even get pregnant!! So after I get back from London, I'll make another appointment with Dr Weary. He'll do an ultrasound to make sure that my ovaries didn't get hyperstimulated. Then if everything is okay there, he'll up my Clomid to 100 mg. I'll wait for my body to decide it's not going to ovulate and start another cycle, and I'll put my family through twice as much hell as I did this time (I was only on 50 mg this time).

I don't want this. I didn't ask for this. I'm tired of looking at food and gaining 10 pounds. I'm tired of not being able to lose any more than four pounds without restricting myself to 1000 calories per day. I'd like to be surprised with an unexpeced positive pregnancy test rather than planning every every unromantic step of it. And just once I'd like a doctor to look at my weight as a symptom of a problem instead of a sign of an undisciplined lifestyle. Just once...

posted by Brandi at 9:02 PM